Why Your Life Can Fall Apart During Spiritual Healing
What spiritual awakening, shamanic healing, and the inner journey can really feel like
By Rachel Rose – Holistic Counsellor & Shamanic Practitioner, Sunshine Coast & Online
Have you ever signed up for spiritual healing or a shamanic container…
and suddenly your whole life started falling apart?
Like the initiation had already begun before you even arrived?
If you’ve ever found yourself wondering
why is my life falling apart after starting healing?
or why do things feel worse before they get better?
You’re not alone.
This is something I often explain to clients before shamanic healing sessions, because it really matters.
I’ve had clients message me saying they felt the shifts before the session even took place.
I’ve had people walk out saying, “Omg… the anxiety is just gone.”
And I’ve also seen the medicine unfold months later… slowly, gently… as life begins to reorganise itself into more peace, more alignment, a deeper exhale.
I cannot predict what your experience will be.
And neither can you.
That part belongs to Spirit.
To the intelligence of your Soul.
Why does IT FEEL LIKE life FALLS apart during spiritual healing?
This is the thing about spiritual healing.
We’re not only working on the physical plane.
Sometimes what is unravelling isn’t random.
It’s the breakdown of what was built from survival, patterns, attachment, or old wounds.
And that can feel like everything is falling apart.
Often, I don’t even ask clients for a clear intention.
They’re welcome to share one… but sometimes it’s almost redundant.
Because what your Soul knows is necessary for your evolution
may be far beyond what your human mind can see right now.
My own experience: the great crumbling
When I first stepped into shamanic healing and ceremonial training,
I had a very clear intention.
I wanted to step into my heart warrior energy 💚
What happened next completely surprised me.
My romantic relationship ended.
My best friend ghosted me.
And within two weeks, all of my clients disappeared from my business.
Everything stopped.
It was absolutely not what I thought I wanted.
I now refer to that time as the great crumbling and reset.
Because everything I had built…
was shaped by ego and illusion.
My relationships.
My business.
They had grown from wounds.
From a deep need to be loved. To be validated.
And that version of my life couldn’t come with me.
I was here to outgrow it.
So Spirit did what it needed to do.
Is this a spiritual awakening or something else?
Over the next six months, I moved through burnout and heartbreak.
I cried more than I had in years.
Deep, aching grief.
Not just because my life had fallen apart…
but because I could feel how far I had drifted from myself.
Who was I really?
Honestly… I didn’t know.
But underneath the grief, something else was stirring.
A quiet rebirth.
A becoming.
When things begin to shift
Six months later, I met my life partner in the most unexpected, magical way.
There was an instant knowing.
After years of chasing men — unconsciously trying to heal my father wound —
I was suddenly standing in front of someone I couldn’t repeat patterns with.
Only heal them.
And in that moment, I realised…
I had arrived at my original intention.
My heart warrior.
The breakdown of that friendship impacted me so deeply
that I went to therapy for the first time in my life.
That journey eventually led me to becoming a Holistic Counsellor on the Sunshine Coast.
Why this kind of healing work matters
So please… don’t underestimate the power of this work.
Don’t confine it to linear timelines.
And try not to grip too tightly to expectations.
Because the human part of us
often cannot comprehend the depth of the journey the Soul is asking us to walk.
Sometimes we need support beyond the mind.
Sometimes we need:
guidance from spirit and ancestors
help clearing blocks and patterns
support calling back parts of ourselves
a way to reconnect to who we really are
Because the more of your Soul you embody…
the clearer your path becomes.
And being anchored in who you truly are
is one of the most powerful resources you can have.
If this is you
If your life has been unravelling since you started healing…
If relationships are shifting, old grief is surfacing, or you feel like you’ve lost your sense of self…
You may not be going backwards.
You may be in a profound healing process.
Not everyone will resonate with this kind of work.
It’s subtle. Mysterious. Sometimes hard to explain.
But for me…
it was the missing piece.
Thank you to my clients who inspired this reflection.
These conversations matter, and it felt important to share.
If this resonates with your journey, I’d love to hear.
Work with me
I offer shamanic healing and holistic counselling on the Sunshine Coast,
as well as online sessions across Australia and worldwide.
If you feel called to this work, you’re welcome to book a complimentary 20-minute consultation.
A space to connect, experience the work, and explore whether it feels right for you.
With love,
Rachel Rose
Holistic Counsellor & Shamanic Practitioner
Sunshine Coast & Online
